Last night, I woke up in a cold sweat. My bedroom window was still encased in onyx, the clouds rolling ruthlessly over a moon that offered no ounce of illumination. I had kicked all of the covers off of my bed, mistaking them for hands that were not gentle. My hair was stuck to […]
Happy Independence Day to my American readers!! Today is a day dedicated to celebrating our country, its founding, and its infamous patriotism. No matter which of the fifty states you call home, we’re all united under that red, white and blue, and that’s a pretty cool thing if you ask me. Since I was […]
I’m a big fan of silence, to tell the truth. I’m halfway introverted and being alone, in the quiet, is usually like heaven for me. Except for when it’s not. I recently made a post about my PTSD and the abusive situation that I spent four and a half months of my life in. I […]
It’s national post-traumatic stress disorder awareness day. While I’m usually very vocal about my struggles with mental illnesses, including anorexia, anxiety, and depression, PTSD is the one that I’m pretty silent on. I thought today, on the day that was named for this very reason, would be the right day to shed just a little […]
So many times over the past year, I’ve sort of taken a step back and looked at my life. And when I do, I think to myself, “Wow, I’ve really let myself go.” I’m so glad that I did.
I was viciously inhaling toilet water through a feeding tube when I realized, hey, maybe this whole “recovery thing” is going to be a lot harder than I thought. Let me backtrack. I had been in quasi-recovery many a time before. I did most of my work entirely outpatient, bouncing from therapist to therapist, being […]
This is my senior AP Literature project. It is probably my favorite piece that I’ve ever written because of it’s parallel to my story and it’s proximity to my heart… so I figured it was time that I share it 🙂 I used to carry nothing, Empty satchels replacing the rotting cavities where my […]
The best way to suppress your appetite: Eat breakfast. Eat a snack. Eat lunch. Eat a snack. Eat dinner. Eat a snack. And any time in between, if you happen to feel hungry, you can knock it out immediately by…wait for it…eating something! If there’s one thing I hate with a fiery passion, it’s diet […]
It was never a delicate matter. I’ve always known who I was supposed to be. I knew far before anyone else knew. All the other kids wanted to be ballerinas or firefighters or Spiderman and I wanted to be a writer. I was already who I wanted to be. I was, at six, poring over […]
She loves you. And she doesn’t say it a lot. She doesn’t say it as much as she knows she should. The truth is, it’s hard to say, “I love you,” because “love” is not a sufficient word. “Love” is the word that she uses when she wishes her best friend happy birthday, when she’s […]